My light is green !!!!

I've been thinking about a few things as I prepare today's blog...one is about, reputation and what people think about me, and the other....blockages.

could it be that they are both related ? maybe...

some people move in different circles to you, you try to get in with them, or to be acknowledged by them, or to be accepted by them...or liked by them....only to find yourself not being real or true to your inner convictions, so it seems to get in with a certain crowd or group, you have to compromise something of yourself... well - not me jack... I am not that fussed about being accepted by everyone...I am fussed about being accepted by Christ and His call on my life and that is enough for me... but I suppose the very fact I am mentioning it means it does have some struggle in me... I think we all want to be accepted and recognised for who and what we are and what we stand for... I think there is an inner longing (in most normal people) for acceptance and recognition...to be loved and liked, to be spoken highly of, to be seen as someone making a difference...well, I guess the question for me at least, is by whom do I wish this recognition and to whom do I desire most to please ? for whom am I trying to make a difference ?

Do you like me ? do you agree with me ? do you think I am a nutter ? do you think I am a fruitcake ? ...hmmmmm!!!! do I care ? of course I do, but really it matters what Christ thinks of me, it matters most what God sees in me, it matters most to me(at least) that He thinks I am awesome and no matter what group or people I am trying to get into or be accepted by, If God thinks I am doing OK and His blessing is raining down on my life, that's what matters most to me.

So, about blockages....
firstly, I guess it is possible that all of the above could become a blockage to moving ahead in Christ...trying to get in with other humans and ideals.....trying to be something, deep down you are not... and I guess we need to work it out for ourselves, but wouldn't it be neat if we could open up the panel in the front of our body that gives access to our soul.... and when we open it we see this flashing red light with a label on that says "BLOCKAGE"..... we snip either side of the label and pull that thing out and the light goes off and turns green , we lock up the panel and bang into life again, winning....successful and victorious in everything.... wouldn't it be neat if it was just that easy to get rid of the blockages ?

well...maybe it is easy for some, and not so easy for others.... for me, its more about, these days, just who am I really serving anyway ? Just who it is that I am trying to please and honour in my life, it seems to me, that when I have a healthy understanding and focus on that, my light is green and bright.

Do blockages actually exist ? for some I think they really do... people do seek out acceptance and acknowledgement, and yes I have as well, but I have quickly discovered that it simply isn't going to come.... people label you as quick as they meet you, they will determine what they think about you, based on their own ideals... we all do that...is it right ? probably not.... but that's why Christ's opinion of us, is so much more important.... and if He gives the green light, that truly is what matters most.